执著

觉得一切都是都过了一段时间了,大家给过我意见,劝告,安慰等等。。10个月了,时间过得真快!刚开始我说我一定能做到,就所谓的nothing is impossible!如今,10个月..10个月了。。我还办不到,陷入越来越深了。对我来说很重要,但是我还不能定下来,问下自己要的到底是什么?是什么?我都知道不可能了,为什么还要那么的执著?我懂这样下去只会弄到大家不开心。但是我还是继续执着的走下去。。有时候真的觉得自己很笨。。为何折磨自己?有时候却会觉得自己这样做是值得的!我很模糊。一个不懂爱惜自己的人有资格爱人家吗?没有。
我很想念那段日子,真的很多回忆。我试过忘掉,但是我没办法做到!!回忆永远都是最难忘的。一个影子在那,永远都会再那。经过每个曾经到过的地方,都看到了种种回忆。真的很想哭。
每天都在责怪自己,为什么当初要这样要那样?不但连累了自己,也拖累了另一个受害者。
我执着,他们也一样.他们永远都待在那一处,不肯走前一步。我懂,他们这样做都是为我好,担心我。但是,他们是不是应该学会体谅呢?让一步不好吗?决定是在于我,如果以后有什么事,至少我不会怪一切,只能怪自己。他们应该学会放手,让我自己走,自己跌倒。我这样的想法,这样做不是我叛逆,而是我学会了勇敢去走那条路。
我很想找回以前的我,开开心心的过每一天。而不是现在这样.

how i pass my 19th [22031993]

nah time flies, i am officially 19 now!! the last year of 1X, next year will be step into 2X..i am that old omg?!
seriously am never purposely plan for any celebration for my 19th bday but everything come with surprise! oh yay i got surprise! happy to the max!
firstly, i am actually have an outing with collegemate but due to some problem and its cancelled! quite dissapointed..sorry for u guys have to cancel the outing because of me! i am so surprise that you guys bought me giordano T..love it!!hehhe..
secondly, i need work although my big day! sound so pitiful right? firstly ya but end up i feel i am enjoying! cause why? my teammate still accompany me to pass my bday during lunch hour!!hahha..feel nice wey..i am quite lucky on my bday too..we get to hit double target on that day, can actually hit triple but too bad our stocks runs out! okay lahh satisfy alssoo..:)
another, wow! i got a belated surprising celebration! my temple fren are actually call to wish me. honestly i nvr expect anything la..but then they collude with my mom and come find me at night! i was so surprise when their car pass by in front of me !thank you for the surprising la..i am really loving it!! wahooo~~

roving team

time flies! i'd been work for 5day! oh yeah, i working roving team as mention at the title! huhu~~
at first, i thought roving team is just like park a car at particular place and wait customer come and who knows it is totally different from what i expected! honestly i really not used to on first day..cause why??!!i need take packet to sell to customer one by one..i seriously jip sau mm dou ah, but how also have to work loh..first day was a terrible sales! our team only got to sell 30++,awkward sales!!goshh~~~alright i am getting used to with the job for second day onwards. our sales boosting day by day till the fifth day! oh yeah!!i am seriously happy with it!!wahooo~~
we sell under the sunny day, raining day, although that sound torturing body but its fun!
i'm get a lesson for this word: dun despise for work, we need learn and gain experience by working any work although is tired!
i learn alots from this job..
i learn to how to communicate with a stranger, how to intro a product and soo on!
i'm loving it although it is tiring..xD

放掉

今天某人告诉我...
你都心知你那段感情是没可能了，为什么还不要放弃？
为什么你还是不肯放手？？在不明显之下让人家觉得你给了他一线的希望..
你都知道没什么可能了...你是不是应该放手让人家有一段新的恋情？？？？
你没有资格去想他，因为你并不是他的谁..懂吗？

我不懂..我不知道..不要问我...
*我一直的在逃避问题*

醋

我不懂何时我变得那么会吃醋..
我可以为了一点小事而意志的在那边乱象...
我会想...你们会不会有未来...会不会在一起？？
aikzz..我崩溃了..很辛苦.....

h0Lid@y

chiang chiang chiang!!
oh yea it has been 2day after my final exam, and which is i'm having sem break now!!hoorayy~~
i'm finally get rid of stressful life!!..aiayar, is just for few week lar kay..alright, its kinda boring during sem break, feel wanna go for work but who want find 3weeks worker lahh..sigh..lots people date me out for the 3weeks sem break ..oh yeah!!however have to control myself before mummy nag..sorry for those who get rejected lah..hoho~~~
okay jump to next topic! i wanna to maka a panda resolution for myself in the coming sem3!!haha..its quite relax for my sem3..i only have to study 2day a aweek..again, boring la..firstly,i wish i could find a part time that can occupy my time, i dont want to grow fungus at home loh..secondly, i wish i able to put more concentration on my study la,i know that's many thing happen on my sem2 and i unable to concentrate..trip, privacy stuff drove me crazy,only can blame me cannot manage thing well la..kanasai meng hui!!=D..thirdly, hmmm..save more money!!lack of money la..student memang poor..ahduii...
wish i'm nt talking crap and my dream can come true!!xDDD

why?

i don't know why you want to lie to me,

you tell me you're not free but actually you are free,

you are sleeping at home but you tell me that you are attending a party,

you know that i hate people lie to me,

but you still did,

isn't that you can lie to others beside your love one??